Happy Birthday

Would have been me dads birthday today if he was still here.

Dad, RIP x

Humid

God its been humid today, tho cooler now. Enjoying the bit of summer we have had in the garden

Horny.........

It's this (bit of) sun, u naughty boi Adam! ;)

Better

Oh feel better now its all over.

Don't like getting another year older, wouldn't it be great to be born 100 years old and work your way down to 0??

OK well maybe not then...........

Happy Birthday Adam!

8 mins to go!!

till me birthday!!!

Birthday!

Oh why do I get depressed on me birthday!

Every fooking year...............

Annoyed

Long story but someone has so pissed me off this week. You bend over backwards to help them and get shit on.

There is no need for what they did and I am well annoyed so they can naff off for now.....

Sunshine

Sitting outside watching the sun go down (and hearing about 10 different starts to Emmerdale through peoples open windows!) I am very pensive tbh, I don't know why but always get like this before I age another year!

I always think what happens when you die? You hear so many stories of it being a place with flowers where you seem to fly. When you watch these medium programmes 'spirits' come through to talk and they are wearing clothes or have fave items with them. I find it all very bizarre, dunno why I am thinking like this, feel drained......

I always seem to do a year review just before my birthday, seeing what happened within the last year. (normally in my head tho lol)

Max (dog)

Lost Max in October, never forget it. She just seemed to start bleeding from her womb and the next thing we know she is gone. The last time I saw her she was full of energy and jumping to give you a kiss, then she was struggling to stay alive. To have her fall to sleep in my arms was terrible. It was a difficult decision to make but she had no quality of life and she was very weak.

Dad

Lost me dad in August last year, had only just started speaking to him again after about 10 years. I was supposed to be going to see him in hospital on one particular evening but I didn't go and then he passed away the day after. I regret not going to see him when I should have. The funeral was very sad, I had just got to know me dad again and he was gone. Typical eh....

Alfie

After Max passed away it didn't feel right to not have a dog, we visited a rescue home and saw Zammo (renamed to Alfie, was the name the rescue centre gave him) We just got to him before an elderly chap did otherwise we may have missed out on him. Alfie is instantly delicious and the fact that someone dumped him on the streets made it more stronger to use a rescue home and give them another chance. He loves to kiss you and has made a wonderful little chap, a bit of a nightmare on the lead but thats maybe due to the way he was in the past as we know very little about the 1 year (he was 1 when we had him) he had before he was dumped on the street.

He's not my little girl but he is a close match.

1 day!

to my birthday! God how another year has flown ain't it! A lot has happened in the last year, lost Max and lost me dad. On a positive note we have Alfie who is a lovely dog.

It makes me laugh when I read what I wrote last year, I was obviously pissed up lol! Well in the eyes of tradition I think I may get that way again later. ;)

I dunno why but I hate it when it gets near my birthday, seems to depress me. Another year older, my god! I look in the mirror and think 'who the hell are you?' Its depressing getting older, your face seems to cave in as if its had an earthquake! No amount of skin cream can seem to prevent this thing happening god dammit lol!

Its been lovely weather so far this week, cant complain really. Total difference from the same story I get every year from my mother 'it was raining when you were born, oh you should have heard the wind outside, the trees were banging on the window' I am that used to it that I now just say it for her......

Its always funny getting older yet sad when people younger pass away, like they have had no life yet we are still here. That's life innit......