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I dunno why but just lately I am getting immense chest pains and a shootin pain down my arm. Sometimes its so bad it fukin hurts.

Maybe I aint got long in this life but one thing I wanted was to be 'loved' before I went, sadly I dont think I will ever feel that. Just a long string of disasters and idiots.

Its in the family, heart problems, just wanted to experience that one thing that I am so jealous of others getting. I feel that I never will..................